IUI

Last night a dear friend came by and gave me my pampered chef stuff.  I was happy about that, but as always happens we started discussing infertility stuff.  I cannot tell you how nice it is to have a really good in-real-life friend to share these struggles with.  They are going through their 3rd IVF cycle and will be testing at the same time we will with our first IUI cycle.  I shared the IUI protocol with her.  She was amazed at how involved it is.  She underwent IUI 4 years ago and it was much less involved.  In a weird way, I don't know if this makes me feel better or not.  I am scared we are going to end up with a litter.  J does not seem to mind as long as we have healthy kids... eeek.  It would be just my luck to end up with a litter.  8-|  All the freak medical things seem to always happen to me.

Great response against the NY Times infertility series

This was one of the best responses I have seen to Stephanie Saul's bad articles about infertility.  I can only hope the NY times will pick it up as an editorial. 

Counting Chickens!

I guess I counted my chickens before the eggs hatched... I just got a call from Shady Grove, my authorization has been approved!!!!!!!  Wooo hooo! this means that I can start IUI in November!  We have been approved for 6 cycles of IUI!  HOPEFULLY this works!  I am going to call them now to see about ordering the meds and getting geared up for the IUI in November. 

Sick again!

I don't know what is wrong, but I hope I don't have the flu.  I've got a sore throat and a bad stomach ach and feel like I just want to throw up.  I hate being sick and not feeling well.  I am not a good sicky by any means.  All I have to say is yuck!

In other news, I am still waiting on the insurance authorization.  Sigh.  I wish it would just come in so we can finally move on to IUI.   

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

There is no foot so small that it cannot leave an imprint on the world- Anonymous

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day was created to promote, support, educate and provide awareness for grieving parents nationwide (and worldwide).  Too many families grieve in silence, sometimes never coming to terms with their loss. Our goal is to help others relate to our loss, know what to say, do or not say, not do and to help families live with their loss, not "get over" their loss.

Did you know:

• 983,000 babies died in 1996, from miscarriage and stillbirth.
• In 1995, 15.7% of pregnancies ended in fetal demise, miscarriage or stillbirth.
• Those figures don't include neonatal loss, SIDS, or other causes.*
  

*According to The Center for Disease Control Trends in Pregnancies and Pregnancy Rates by Outcome Vital Health Stat (21)56 done in January 2000

More information about today can be found here: http://www.october15th.com/

You all know someone who is missing their angel and if you don't think you do, you do now. Unfortunately J and I have suffered a miscarriage.  We miscarried during the 11 week.  The baby only measured 8 weeks and 5 days.  We saw the heartbeat during our first ultrasound (156 bpm) and all looked great, until it ended in January of 2008.    We will never just "get over" our loss.  How can you "get over" something that you loved before you ever knew it?  We will, however, move on, though and not let our loss define who we are.  I really hate how there seems to be a stigma with pregnancy loss.  I feel we should talk about it more and not hide behind the fact that it happened.

I am sending all the love, thoughts and prayers out there to all the people who are like me, and who have suffered losses.

NY Times Infertility "series"

This is a new "series" on the NY Times.  They are exploring infertility and it's price.  I think it is spurred on by all the Octomom and Jon and Kate over-hyped stuff.  I did not know if anyone had seen this series or not.  The two articles I saw are:

• The Gift of Life and It's Price
• Grievous Choice on Risky Path to Parenthood

IMHO, I am a offended by the articles as they portray only the negative side (high costs, health problems) of infertility.  I wish they would portray some positive sides (those who have happy health children) of infertility.  No one asks to be infertile and go through all this stuff just to have a family.  Where are the stories on those of us that are going through the heart ache of infertility to get a family?  The media has no clue about us.  It breaks my heart. 

Bye Bye accupuncture

I cancilled the apt for today.  I am no longer going to be doint accupuncture.  In a way I feel like a small weight has been lifted.  I am going to need to start fertillity yoga soon for the relaxation aspect.

IUI will be in November

So it looks like the insurance authorization has not come in yet.  That means we will be doing our IUI in November.  I made Jason promise that he has to be around for it.  That means if he goes out of town for work he needs to come back to do his thing so we can hopefully make a baby.

All I have to say right now is that this TTC business gets so old so fast- especially when you deal with insurance companies!

In other notes, I think I am going to stop acupuncture as nothing has been happening b/c of it and I am getting tired of wasting the money.   

It looks like we will be doing two different injections for the IUI.  We will do a FSH injection that should help stimulate the follicles growth and then we will do a trigger on CD11.  I now need to call the OB and remind them to fax over the information that they needed to fax over.

Le sigh!

On to the next cycle...

Today is 12 DPO in my cycle.  I started spotting.  This means AF is just around the corner.  I guess we are now on to the next cycle.  That means I will be "good".  No more alcohol.  I will do fertillity yoga for 2-3 days a week. 

I am hopefull that the authorization came through and we can start the IUI this cycle.  I guess we will find out tomorrow as we take our injection class training. 

le sigh!