HSG #2 done!

Left tube is all clear and it looks like we are all set for IUI's again in Sept.  It worked for us once, so it might work for us again.  I am just not super excited about it, b/c my tubes were "all clear" after the first HSG and I still ended up having an ectopic.  le sigh.

HSG

My first period started 7 days ago.  This was the first one since the ectopic, b/c it took 3 months for my beta's to drop.  So I go in tomorrow for the HSG.  My second one.  They suck.  But they want to make sure my one tube is ok.  The song I posted below is a good reminder that I am not broken and I have to deal with what I have.  I do like Jewel. 

Hands

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

Blast from the past: Tarrator!

This is a cold Cucumber Soup that is AMAZING.  I ate it daily in the summer time in Bulgaria. 

MMMM... If you use Greek plain yoghert, it needs more water (1/2 c more) and more salt (~1/2 teaspoon more). Yummm! I love summer b/c of things like this!
http://www.grouprecipes.com/5886/tarator-cold-yogurt-cucumber-soup.html#

Ingredients

• 2 cucumbers, peeled and chopped (or grated) shopping list
• 1 garlic clove, minced shopping list
• 4 c. plain yogurt shopping list
• 1/2 c. water shopping list
• 1/4 tsp. salt shopping list
• 2 tbs. dill, chopped shopping list
• 2 tsp. oil shopping list
• finely chopped walnuts

How to make it

1. Mash the garlic with salt and then add to it grated or finely chopped cucumber.
2. Add these to a large bowl and pour in the yogurt.
3. Gradually add water - the thickness is down to taste and also depends on how flavorful the yogurt you are using is.
4. Add additional salt to taste.
5. Add finely chopped walnuts and fresh dill as well as a couple of tea spoons of oil (sunflower or olive oil is typically used).
6. Best if refrigerated at least two hours before serving to allow flavors to mix.

Moving on...

Thursday I had another beta.  The number was .5 not 0, but not 1 either, so... that means I get to wait one cycle, have an other HSG and then do IUI.  I think the number was my body's way of saying f/u.  Oh well.  It will be nice to move on.  I hope the HSG comes out great and the first IUI is successful!

Debates over TTCing again

I have to stipulate this post with a preface.. I truly love my mom, but she is a bit crazy about freak accidents.  She thinks we are all going to die in a freak accident or something.  When my Prof of a sister took off to Mexico for a year for research, she sent her TONS of stuff on what to do in an Earthquake.  When DH went to eat some cookie dough, she slapped his hand away and told him she did not want him to die of salmonella poisoning.  Seriously. 

When I had the ectopic, she FREAKED out, b/c of Dr. Google.  She started googling and discovered that ectopics can be deadly.  So now she is freaking out about our continued efforts to TTC (trying to conceive), because Dr. Google told her that it could be deadly if we get another ectopic and that is possible b/c your chances of ectopic do increase after you have had one (but I think it is only if you still have the tube b/c of scar tissue, and I don't have it anymore).  


Mom, I love you, but seriously, this is what we want to do.  She knows she can't change our mind but that doesn't stop her from talking about adoption with me.  It is her passive aggressive way of telling me that she doesn't want us to TTC again. 

Last night I had a very nice conversation with some in real life friends who have had 3 losses and 6 failed IVF attempts.  I told them about my crazy mom and it honestly felt so good to be validated for wanting to continue to TTC.  They understand that we want to try all that we can to have a natural child first.  We haven't ruled out adoption, later, but for now we want to try for a biological child.