It's officially over

They did an ultra sound today and found a sack in my left tube.  The pregnancy is ectopic.  They started me on methotrexate in the hopes that it will dissolve the pregnancy and I won't have to have surgery.  I can't drink for 2 weeks, but that is ok, b/c the alternative is not desirable (surgery).  I would like to keep my lady parts, if I can please.  I go back in Monday for more blood work and another methotrexate injection. 

This just sucks.  life is so unfair sometimes. 

Today's beta

went up.  It is 2142.  They don't know what that means and can't tell me any more than that.  I guess I go in for a u/s on Wed. 

I think it is over. :-(

We had so much hope for our November Possibility, but unfortunately it does not look good.  On Monday I got home and was in severe abdominal pain, so J took me to the emergency room.  We told them I was 5 weeks pregnant.  At first they thought it was appendicitis.  The pain was constant, so they wanted to do an ultra sound to see if they could see anything pregnancy wise and appendix wise.  I had a very high white blood count, so they knew something was wrong.  After all the tests they still did not know.  My beta was 1300 ish.  I don't remember the exact number.  So since the symptoms of appendicitis and ectopic pregnancy are the same, they thought it could be either one of those.  They admitted me for observation over night and in the AM the beta was 1200 is.  Again I don't remember the exact number.  The drop is not good.  By the end of the day on Tuesday they suspected the pain was caused by a ruptured cyst on my right ovary.  But the dropping beta was concerning so they were not ruling out an ectopic pregnancy.  The next day, I went into the OB and she ruled out an ectopic pregnancy.  But we still officially don't know about the pregnancy.  She said beta's can vary from lab to lab, so she did not want us to get one done with her, b/c it would be a third lab and could confuse the data.  She told me to let Shady Grove know about what happened on Monday and to have their lab do betas as it will be more consistent coming from them.  I went in today and will find out later what is going on.  The nurse was so kind and sad for me.  I spotted once in the ER and have not spotted since then, but the symptoms are less, so I suspect it is over. 

Beta #3

The number is  829.  It doubled.  Yay!  I just might be able to keep this baby.  I set up the first u/s for March 31.  So nervous!

17 DPO Beta

I went in for the Beta draw this AM.  I am so scared.  The nurse tried to put me at ease, but admitted that even with a loss you will never be at ease.  Apparently she had a late loss at 20 weeks when her little boy died of heart failure in the uterus.  She said she was terrified during the whole time of her next pregnancy, but it was healthy.  I explained my loss at 11 weeks and how long it has taken to get us to this point after our loss and she just hugged me.  I was in tears by that point.

As for the Beta's she explained to me that they are looking for an increase but it does not have to be doubling, just about a 40% increase.  She said that most people will double, but it does not happen to everyone.  Also my beta at ~15DPO (173) is a great number.  They like to see above 75 at that point.

I will update when I get the numbers from them this afternoon.  ETA today's beta's are 393.  They more than doubled!

IUI #3= BFP!!

Beta #1 is 173!

I am shocked, and stunned!

15 DPO

No AF, but b/c of the progesterone it won't come until 2 days from now.  I expect a BFN.  Had blood drawn this AM.  I don't see how an embie could implant when I was so sick all week last week.  Oh well.  I am getting use to that.  On to the WTF apt on Wed....