CD 12 (Sunday Aug 29)

Not happy news.  I got up early and went to the apt.  I felt like cattle they herded me in and only looked at 2 follies when I knew and the u/s tech also knew I had more than that. 

Right Follie- 11.1
Left Follie- 18.8
E2 158
Lining 8.8

Not great numbers for the E2.  It usually should be around 200 and it isn't, although some Dr's are ok with it above 150.  :-(

They had us trigger.  We did finally end up getting the trigger on Sat. afternoon after a huge debacle with insurance. 

The clinic called my cell phone and left a message, I somehow missed the call.  So I had to make the apt for the iui on Monday.  There where no times left for almost all of the slots.  We did end up getting squeezed into Rockville at 8:30 for the SA wash and 10 for the insemination. 

I am already over this cycle.  Not only are my numbers bad, I had to battle insurance and the fertility clinic for meds and apts.  I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take. 

CD10 Apt Update (Friday Aug 27)

E2 level is 104
Left Follie 12.5
                 7
                 6
Right Follie 8.8

CD8 Apt. Details

E2 level is 92.9
I have a (GULP) total of 16 follies.
On the Right 1 big one... @ 7.1
On the Left 2 big ones... 9.7 and 8.8

Go back in on CD 10 with 2 more days of 75 iu of Gonal-F injections. 

The sad thing is that they are making me so hormonal and nauseous. 

Insurance is sending more Gonal-F... finally, but still have not approved the trigger.  Le sigh. 

CD6 Monitoring Apt.

Left ovary 5 follies
Right ovary 3 follies

No update on lining b/c I am still bleeding.  But I have made DH inject me in the left side so the left ovary gets most of the FSH.  That appears to be helping... Go back on Wed for another dildo cam check.

Insurance is being a PITA.  Last IUI cycle I refilled my Gonal-F prescription b/c they where a PITA and delayed my meds.   So I have a bunch of Gonal-F, but will need the Ovadril to Trigger and the endometrium after the IUI.  I have a feeling I will have to do the "refill" thing again for a next cycle, if we need it.  I hate trying to plan around slow insurance companies.

ETA:  E2 level is 73.1.

Insurance still sucks.  I have been on the phone with 2 fertility pharmacies about the drugs I need and still nothing.  Ugh.  I hate this. 

le sigh.

CD3 Monitoring Apt

Right ovary 6 follies
Left ovary 5 follies
Will start 75mL Gonal-F injections for 3 days and then go back on Monday for another monitoring apt to see how they are growing. 

IUI #4 should start soon...

AF is on her way.  Good thing too, b/c I have been having some awful pms.  The logistics are going to be hellish.  J is not going to be thrilled with the idea that AF is almost here a bit early.  I hope we can pull this off.  I am not looking forward to giving my self shots, and I don't like the symptoms of the drugs. 

Getting ready for IUI #4

We will do this in Sept.  It is probably going to be the trickiest IUI we have done yet.  DH is going out of town for work for 3 weeks (at least).  So he will have to fly home and give his sample then fly back to Tahoe.  He actually asked me to delay the follie growth/trigger/IUI stuff until the weekend.  Um, honey, it doesn't work that way!

So, in preparation for the next IUI, our fridge is filled with pom juice, I have started to take the prenatals again (yuck), and I bought pee sticks so I can pee the trigger out.  About the prenatals, I HATE them.  They always make me feel yucky.  So this time I went to Target and found gummy prenatals!  Score!  I think I have found THE BEST prenatals yet.  I supplement them with gummy calcium. 

So now it is a waiting game.  I wait for AF to start and then we will do IUI #4!

I feel lucky

There have been a bunch of small things that have honestly left me feeling very grateful for what I have.  Granted, we might not have the family we want or have dreamed of, but we have each other.  Our losses and our journey has only made me and J and our relationship stronger.  After the 2nd loss, I had a very self-conscious week spot and asked J to not leave me b/c I have not been able to give him a child.  He looked at me like I was crazy and said he would never think about that.  I don't know where or why I am so lucky and blessed, but I am.  If nothing else, all this drama we have had has made me not want to take what we have for granted.  I love J, with all my heart.  He is truly my rock.  I would never have been able to get through the heartache of two losses (and the possibility of more) without him.