I feel lucky

There have been a bunch of small things that have honestly left me feeling very grateful for what I have.  Granted, we might not have the family we want or have dreamed of, but we have each other.  Our losses and our journey has only made me and J and our relationship stronger.  After the 2nd loss, I had a very self-conscious week spot and asked J to not leave me b/c I have not been able to give him a child.  He looked at me like I was crazy and said he would never think about that.  I don't know where or why I am so lucky and blessed, but I am.  If nothing else, all this drama we have had has made me not want to take what we have for granted.  I love J, with all my heart.  He is truly my rock.  I would never have been able to get through the heartache of two losses (and the possibility of more) without him.