I am a bitter b!tch

I am bitter b/c  everyone of my IRL friends ute seems to be working right now and mine isn't.  It is making me so bitter.  Don't get me wrong, I don't want anyone else's baby, just mine and DH's, but I am very afraid we will never get pregnant again- I just don't understand how we could get pregnant once without even trying and now we can't get pregnant at all! 

Another friend emailed me last night to tell me that she is 3 months pregnant.  I tried to be happy for her, but I am really not because it is just another reminder that my ute hates me.  She is 16 weeks today and is already 99% sure she his having a boy even though she is suppose to find out the sex in 2 weeks.  Um okay- another friend had the same thing happen to her- she was 99% sure she was having a boy and they did the big apt and tell her she is having a girl. 

I broke down last night and cried myself to sleep.  DH understands, but still thinks I need to stop "stressing and worrying" about all of this stuff.  Um, easier said than done, DH! If I could I would stop "stressing and worrying".

Thanks for letting me vent.  I needed to get all of this out and DH, as good as he is, just doesn't quite understand where I am coming from with all of this stuff sometimes.